10 day challenge

Karen did this on tumblr and stole it from ezzie and kelechi... so now i will steal it. Ten Day Challenge. One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people. Two: Nine things about yourself. Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Five: Six things you wish you had never done. Six: Five people who mean a lot. Seven: Four turn offs. Eight: Three turn ons. Nine: Two smileys that describe your life. Ten: One confession.

i will start on it later though... and give you my daily update too



Okay this is me updating:

So I'm going to start the ten day challenge tomorrow. Today i feel crappy... I pretty much feel like not being here. I feel like I am not worth much these days. That I am the last person anyone would come to for anything. That To potential employeers I am just a piece of paper and that piece of paper says that I am crap because I have no experience and can't even complete a BSN before having to drop it and get a lower degree. Okay, so I know the last statement is true and that is probably where this is stemming  from. But today was just crappy. I LOVE when people keep secrets from me. That just makes me feel awesome you know? Like what, am I not a trustworthy enough person for you that you really think I would go talking to everyone I know about what ever it was? Seriously... if you haven't looked at my life recently let me fill you in. I spend 10 hours a day with toddlers... the other 8 that I am awake I am usually alone. I have exactly 3 people that I talk to daily and it is because they are forced to be in the same room with me. WHO THE HELL WOULD I SAY ANYHTING TO? Sorry my mood sucks.

The girls got to play outside at day care today which is always a good thing. Then daddy (my BIL) was home when we got back so they got to play outside some more. Kate was too cute playing outside in the dead of winter in a tutu. I will be visiting the Dr office next with her I'm sure.

I'm going on a cruise. Not sure if I said that earlier. Lastnight I had to do my check in and set up an expense account for it. It is Feb 17th to the bahamas! woohoo! it is my first. the ladies ministry at church is doing it for a women's retreat. so pumped!

On to the diet! So today was good... still had 3 munchkins and a cornbread muffin, but if i didn't have them when I wanted them then I would devour a whole lot more when I eventually gave in. So for breakfast i had a california pite. it is really good. I had it the other day too. It is pita with almond butter and grapes. Almond butter is amazing! you should try it. and it is pretty easy to make. just google raw almond butter. then for lunch and dinner (i know, lame) I had the spaghetti squash again. I really do like spaghetti squash! I think it would be totally and completely yummo with some real sauce. Don't think I am going to do a snack at night any more. It is a lot of food for one day even though I have only been consuming between 1200-1300 calories everyday. It is just time consuming to eat 4 times a day.

So, I think it is safe to post now... my sister is having a GIRL! That makes #4!!!! so Amelia Lois will be here in June and I am so totally stoaked!

I'm off for tonight. Tomorrows post should be fun: hair day, babysitting, 10 day challenge... lots of stuff.