Varsity payback!

I got to hang out with my wonder aunt Kris today! I miss her living here so much and i wish i visited her in NC more often! We went to eat lunch at the Varsity (more on that later), chilled at Grandmother's, ate dinner at the Italian Oven, and went shopping at Borders.

So Borders is closing 5 atlanta area stores... oh my how i am going to get into trouble with that! I love books these days (and a lot of other crap they have there). Right now most stuff is 20% off so i will wait until stuff is reduced more. But it is going to cost me... and i;m okay with that! I can't wait to buy lots and lots of books!

My aunt is great! I worry about her a lot... especially since Grandmother passed. She is a busy, busy person and has 4 young kids and i just dont think she has gotten the time for herself to deal with Grandmother's passing. I wish she lived here! I need to talk to her a lot but I know she is busy and over the phone just isn't the same as in person any way. I want to make more time to go up there.

Sweet story about Livi (Kristi's almost 4 year old). She was going to bed last night at Grandmothers and said to Kris, "I'm ready for Grandmother to come back from Heaven now." Isn't that sweet?!?! And can I just say... me too Livi... me freaking too!

I haven't really talked to anyone much about Grandmother lately. I feel like I am coming apart at the seems when it comes to talking about her... and well, i dont like to lose it in front of people and i just feel like everyone (not my fam but my friends) have moved on from that. I know they would let me talk about it if I did, but Grandmother is all I want to talk about. I miss her! I MISS HER!!! I really want to hear her voice again... and at this point i would settle for a recording becuase I know it is all i'm going to get and I hate that! I want to talk to her and feel close to her again. today, Kristi was talk about their tript o Dollywood last summer and I just wanted to scream. I was invited to go but didn't want to leave my sister without someone to help her with the girls and I had already been gone a lost and couldn't afford to miss another week. I couldn't afford it was my biggest excuse... I thought I had time with her. i thought I have 20 more years with her... and I don't have any time now. I should have gone. I hate myself for not going. Just like I hate myself fot the countless times I turned down a trip to see Kristi with her. Why did I do that? I could have so many more memories with her... maybe that would have made this time less painful.

I need to stop with the sad... i'm losing it and I don't want to feel that right now.

So back to the Varsity.

If you don't live near Atlanta or have never been here or to the Varsity... it is AWESOME! They say the are the world's larges drive-in... but i dont think it is true. It is truly an experience to go there. it is just a burgers and hot dog place, but it is so old school Atlanta that it isnt even funny! So I had two chili dogs and onion rings. They were so good... like soooo good! But now, they have come back to bite me! I have horrible poo right now. I know TMI, but it is true. It is the greasiest food you will ever have, but soooo good! I swear the grease has to be 20 years old at least to get the flavor out of it that they do. Give it a try the next time you are in town... and bring some tums of pepto!